HURT

Only at time like this thus i feel so alone. The world starts to weigh on my shoulder and i run out of things to numb me. Yes, i constantly feel like this world is not enough. Everything is not enough. I have to keep on running. I have to keep on talking. I have to go somewhere else, do something else, talk with someone else. I can't stand doing nothing and it's killing me.

And in the midst of night like this, i can't shake that need, that feeling of hopelessness. 

You know, seeing my friends accomplish something or doing something exciting whilst i am left here alone doing nothing, i feel ashamed. I feel like a failure. Fail to do what? I don't even know for sure.

One thing that's clear to me. This is not happiness. I'm not happy. Everything is killing me. Please, can somebody help me? I'm begging for salvation. I'm begging for deliverance.

Please rescue me.

Please help me.

I'm drowning in air.